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Usually when I come home, I can settle into a nice routine and relax. I don't ever get bored and I am very at ease. This time, not so much. My heart is constantly not at ease. I want to do something for my community for the friends around me. Its only been three days and i'm going crazy at the idea of not changing things and just being complacent. So many people around me need God so badly. I want to see Emily and Steph living for God with everything they have within them. I want to see my church growing every week. I want to see peace come into my home. I prayed tonight with my mom and it was so good. That woman has a passion within her for Him that many people underestimate. She is such an amazing woman and it felt good to pray with her. I want to have my old Brian back. It breaks my heart at what he's become and it is very hard not to severely dislike the boys at church for playing such a negative role in his life. Argh. I have sooo much I want to do and i'm praying hard core against laziness. I don't want to stop longing for Him with my every breath. I want Him to be in every aspect of my thinking. He has unlocked something within me and I want to see what it will become. There is soooo much to do and I need to start doing it! I already sent out an email to one of my friends and i'm planning on starting a Bible study in my home with em, steph, and some others every week. Surrounding them with Christians may be the best thing for them to grow and connect with Him. I also want to start prayer walking around Horseheads! I'm a little scared, but I want to try to involve my church. I just can't sit any longer and not try to change things! I wish I could describe what's going on inside of me right now, but its too difficult!!! Ah!