Blag

So I should be in bed right now...........oh well. I can't stand emotion. I absolutely hate being emotional. It makes me incredibly mad and disappointed with myself. I hate wanting. I hate needing. I just want to bounce out of everything and take off running. Running would be so nice. I don't want to deal with this anymore. Feelings are so troublesome. But whatever right?

Blah

So I got to have a lot of alone time today. That isn't a complaint, for it was kind of a nice change, or at least thats the story i'm sticking with. haha. I hate feeling. I hate emotion. I'm so blah because of stinking feelings. They just kind of came on me today. I do not like where things are at. I don't like tension or to be a punching bag. I have feelings too. I'm hurt too. There are so many choices and some would be so much easier but my heart is not in those choices. For some inexplicable reason i'm caught up in the difficult ones. My heart is crying. Not me, never me, but my heart. Ouch. Ouch. Ouch. Ouch. I just want to be loved and respected, not to sound pathetic or anything. I really am fine. I'm just hurting. But then so is everyone....



And now Ihave visions haunting me..........