How beautiful

It is so gorgeous out today! I took a long walk around campus and then out to the breakwall. It was amazing though I wouldn't suggest going out on the breakwall for another few weeks. There is still a lot of pack ice, the water is way too high, and the wind was too strong for me. I got kinda scared and turned back not too far out, plus I couldn't really see where the cracks between the ice were with the pack ice. Anyways, it was so wonderful spending time with God. When I hurt my knee, I really allowed satan to take so much of me. This semester i've been trying to get back to who I was before everything happened and today I realized just how dumb that is. Why am I trying to be who I was? Sure there are some things that were not existent but I have grown and changed so much since then in many other ways. I have overcome a lot and even though I am still haunted by memories of the past and my insecurities still come out quite often because of certain comments, I need to move forward and become who I am meant to be, not who I was. Its not about being going back but about being made new. I want to continually be renewed and transformed, not to revert back to what made sense and worked at that time. Everything happens for a reason. I'm embracing Him and His plan. I'm sick of being insecure and shying back because of what I let into my life. Its time to wake up and move away from the deeds of darkness. The night is almost over; the day is coming. (Romans 13:12) There is strength in His very breath. I want to breathe Him in everyday. No more being scared, I'm ready for anything He wants to unlock in me.