I'm Hurt

I'm really hurt right now. Like really, knife shoved through the heart hurt. I feel so weak and vulnerable. I absolutely hate asking people for help, to get me something, to drive me somewhere. It may not look like it, but it really bothers me to have to ask. I'm sorry that I am incapable of doing things on my own. If I could, I would do it in a heartbeat. Instead I'm left to depend on others. That kills me more than you can imagine. So you can understand that when my friends get really annoyed with helping me how much that hurts me. I can understand that I am a major inconvienence right now...I'm really sorry about that, but I don't know how not to be at this current time. I'm in pain. I am weak. I cannot walk on my own two feet. Doors are very difficult to open. I continually slip or trip up. Thats how things are right now, so if you don't want to help I guess just stay away. Honestly, I'd rather do everything on my own then get help from someone who is just going to get annoyed and frustrated with me. I'm trying. I don't know what else you expect from me. Sorry. I'll do better?