I feel so stupid for writing this right now, but today is an emotional day for me and I seriously have no idea why. I am done with thinking into things too much and I am SICK of it! I am sick of thinking with my old mind set. I thought I was done with that, but today is a bad day. I just feel like getting a hug from everyone around me, yet I truly believe that they would only give one out of pity. I am stupid. Plain and simple. I am sitting here upset at stupid things instead of writing a reflection paper. That is stupid. My mind set is stupid. My......bodily functions......are stupid, as is my random sprained wrist! So, yeah, I am not the happy dappy little camper today. Is it so bad to want to be loved? I don't know what to do with myself. I want to just separate from everyone until I gain some intelligence. Maybe I am just tired and should not be writing any of this........no sé. Sometimes I wonder if people really know me as well as they think. And if they do know me THAT well, then I should back down, cuz that is scary! Life was easier when I was the stranger and kept aloof. Why does God want me to be so open? I tell people the stupidest things and I need to keep my big, fat, stupid mouth closed!! What is wrong with me?! I am sick of people thinking of me as just the silly little youngin, who we can just disregard, ignore, or grow annoyed with at a moment's notice. Gahrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!
But oh well, I am probaly just emotional and wanted to write so if anyone is reading this, and I am sure Ryan is, disregard all of the above for I AM FINE. I can smile and laugh like everyone else and wil pop back into shape in no time. :) See! A smile already!
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