Brrrr!!!! I am sooooo cold!!!!!!!!!!

Tonight was very good, very good indeed. The prayer walk went well. It was only my brother, me and Jillian, but I feel like it was that way for a reason. The three of us prayed and talked for a long while as we waked a very gorgeous park. It was so peaceful and calm. I could not have asked for a better place to pray. We're planning on some trips to the Watkins Glen Gorge, Buttermilk Falls, white river rafting, and bonfires!!! I hope most of those plans work out. I'm really trying to unite the Christians around here so that we can be one force and then work on reaching out from there. I feel like we all really need each other and only a few of them realize this, which saddens me a tad. I don't think two of my friends are that interested, but Jillian, Steph, and Victoria are with me all the way, so thats a blessing. The prayer walk was soooooooooo good for my Tommy. It was good to get him out and uncomfortable, praying with a fellow believer. Before we went in our house, after talking the whole way back, we sat in the car and he told me about everything going on in his heart and all the pain he's holding inside. He's where I was at years ago, holding everything inside, shoving down all the emotions to create a protective barrier against those closest to you. Its a horrid place to be and ostracizes you so much. He told me about how much he dislikes himself and how he always focuses on all his failures. I was able to share and talk with him and he said he'll pray about everything I said. Before we left though, I prayed with him, letting everything God placed in my mouth come out and by the time I was finished, my poor tommy was crying. I'm beginning to think that i'm home for more than just my best friends. It kills me to think of all the pain he's holding inside of him. :( My poor brother. I'm praying he allows God's healing into his heart and that he lets go of all the negative things he's been holding on to.
Thats where Tom's at, and Brian?...... He keeps making fun of me about prayer walks and is putting me down continually. He's trying to turn the rest of my family against me and is even making fun of it to my friends who have been on the prayer walk. He thinks i'm in some sort of occult thing and that he doesn't believe in the power of God and people hearing or seeing things from Him. He breaks my heart and angers me so. I know he is hurting, but he disrespects and makes fun of God so much. Its all I can do not to get mad and yell at him. I'm forced to hold my tongue a lot and pray against the discouragement he is shoving on me. Ugh.
Besides that, i'm very excited for this summer. God has big plans and I'm just begging to be used by Him. I'm going to talk to my assistant pastor and see if I can get more involved in the church. I can't let it fan out. This passion that's burning needs some fuel or i'll go crazy!